I wrote a few weeks ago about things happening and us not understanding why. You can read that entry here.
This in itself is really hard to understand. Why things happen. What is even harder is forgiving someone. Even though it is hard to understand, process and in all actuality forgive, it will serve you the best in the end.
1. To excuse for a fault or an offense; pardon.
2. To renounce anger or resentment against.
3. To absolve from payment of (a debt, for example)
I have been struggling with this for a while now. I have a few people in my life that I am trying to forgive, from the past and much more recent.
My heart is heavy and sad with pain, confusion, anger and at the same time trying to find a place of comfort and peace knowing that some relationships must come to an end.
As I write this 23 days before my wedding, my eyes are filled with tears knowing that there will be a small place of absence on my special day. This is really hard to grasp, accept and understand, however there is still a place in my heart knowing that it is meant to be and will serve me the best.
While these acts have really hurt me, offended me and left me with loads of questions of why and the actions of these friends and family will always be a part of my life and memory, I choose to release these feelings and forgive.
I surrender. I surrender. I surrender.
I forgive. I forgive. I forgive.
I will choose to focus on the positive relationships and the exciting things happening in my life. I choose to forgive and offer each person that has hurt me compassion and empathy. I choose to bring comfort and peace into my life without excusing their behavior and actions.
I choose the do this as it is the kindest thing I can do for myself. I choose to set those free of their hurtful words and actions. I choose to rest on the shoulders of those who love me and comfort me on a daily basis.
AS I UNTIE MYSELF FROM YOU, YOU ARE FORGIVEN………..
“People are often unreasonable and self-centered. Forgive them anyway.
If you are kind, people may accuse you of ulterior motives. Be kind anyway.
If you are honest, people may cheat you. Be honest anyway.
If you find happiness, people may be jealous. Be happy anyway.
The good you do today may be forgotten tomorrow. Do good anyway.
Give the world the best you have and it may never be enough. Give your best anyway.
For you see, in the end, it is between you and God.
It was never between you and them anyway.”
~ Mother Teresa
As always, love and blessings.